March 2012

`Today Rob was in my bed for the first time. I even got a bit embarrassed. He is simply amazing! Rob is 10 years older than me (he is 39) and I think he looks a bit like Ben Affleck.

Rob is a mortgage consultant. When he first entered our real estate agency, all the girls lost their minds!

We exchanged business cards to contact about work matters, but he literally started bombarding me with texts and emails.

We had dinner together a couple of times. When he was near, butterflies fluttered in my stomach. Today champagne led us to kiss and ended up in my bed. Luckily, Lucy, my roommate, was out of town.

I had been single for three years... Rob seems crazy to me. And sex with him is simply amazing. But there is one problem...

Rob cannot be my man. He is married and raising two twin daughters with his wife, who are 6 years old.`

August 2012

Long ago I swore that I would never date a married man. The thing is, my father cheated on my mother... I was a teenager when I found out and I still haven`t forgiven him.

Now fate has played a surprise on me: I myself ended up in the role of a mistress... After that night, I swore it was the first and last time. But Rob had other plans.

We spent our second night in a hotel. He didn`t even take off his wedding ring...

Now we meet once a week. Rob showers me with expensive gifts. First we have dinner at a restaurant, and then we go to a hotel.

Rob told me that his wife Kelly is not interested in intimacy after the birth of their daughters. That`s why he doesn`t feel guilty.

My friend Lucy always questions me about Rob, but I reply that we meet only for work.

October 2012

I confessed to Rob that I love him. I wasn`t ready to fall in love, but I couldn`t do anything about my feelings. Rob replied that he loves me too.

He plans to divorce Kelly next year. I eagerly await when we can finally not hide our relationship!

I`m already sick of sex in hotels. And I can`t wait to introduce Rob to my friends.

December 2012

To avoid suspicion from his wife, for Christmas I gave Rob a tie. During the entire holiday break we talked for 5 minutes while he was walking the dog. I couldn`t hold back tears...

And the worst is that all holidays my mom tried to question me if I have someone...

I realize that I`m ruining Rob`s daughters` lives. But still, I eagerly await when he leaves Kelly!

November 2013

This year there were many events: I turned 30, I got promoted at work, but my friend Lucy got married. Only Rob is still with his wife...

Every time he finds reasons not to divorce his wife. First Rob said that Kelly`s mom is ill, so he didn`t want to start talking about divorce in such a difficult time. Then it was their wedding anniversary. After that, there were many other excuses.

I told Lucy about Rob. She said I`m a fool and he will never leave his family. It seems she was right...

January 2014

All evening I looked at Kelly`s pictures on Facebook. She was a beautiful blonde. Her entire feed was full of family photos with Rob.

I don`t believe they don`t have sex! They look very happy!

September 2014

Kelly knows everything about us...

Rob and I bought tickets to Rome to spend the weekend together. At the airport he kept disconnecting: Kelly kept calling him about the kids. Then some woman passed by us, and upon seeing her, Rob turned pale as chalk.

In Rome we were close to a nervous breakdown. When we returned home, Rob called me and said we have to break up. Kelly read my texts on his phone. Luckily, she doesn`t know my real name.

Lucy thinks it`s for the best. She often introduces me to her husband`s friends, but I can`t think of anyone but Rob.

May 2015

I`m dating Rob again. True, now he doesn`t pretend he`s going to divorce and I don`t demand anything from him.

Nothing will come of us, but I`m happy he`s around!

I live alone now. Rob comes for a couple of hours to have sex, but I pretend everything is fine.

And also Rob has become paranoid.

February 2016

I think a lot about what my and Rob`s future would be like if we had a normal relationship. Every time I`m visiting some family, I imagine us in their place.

I even think I should stop taking birth control pills. Pregnancy would tie Rob to me. He would have to change something in his life and reconsider his relationship with Kelly.

January 2017

Everything in my life is the same. If 5 years ago someone told me I would be a mistress, I would definitely laugh.

But I still hope that Rob wants to be with me!

March 2017

Looking at other mistresses, I wonder how they managed to lure a man away from his family. I hate myself for not succeeding!

But the thing is, I really love Rob a lot. And I`d rather share him with his wife than live without him at all... `

Can you imagine yourself in the place of this diary`s heroine, and is such behavior acceptable to you? Write in the comments what you think about it, and discuss it with your friends!